Monday, May 23, 2011

God Shouts

"God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world." C.S. Lewis

Though I don't ask for pain, it awakens my senses like nothing else can.  I have known this before.  Now I live it again.     

I see the spoon God offers me.  I put it to my lips reluctantly and wonder, "Can I really swallow this strong tonic?  Or will it kill me?"  I don't know if I can withstand this pain. 

I am weak and too often buried under my circumstances.  I have swam in the torrent of my own tears.  I've been captive of fear, prisoner of panic, slave of self-pity.    

"Lord, I believe!  Help Thou my unbelief!  Though you slay me, I will trust in You."  Tentative, I open my mouth to take it all in.  My unbelief lingers.  I expect to sputter out a "Marah".  

But instead I taste honey.  And it is good.  Not because it cures me.  Not because I suddenly feel no pain.  It is good  because it is wakes me up to God near, nearer than ever before.  He's everywhere.  His goodness, His mercy, His grace, His love, His comfort.

Do you think God is shouting?  Or am I just FINALLY listening? 

Continuing the count:
997. MS
1026. Jesus!  Hope!
1064. Driftwood cross
1099. All for His glory
1100. All for my good
1111.  Budding trees
1116. Laughing until you cry - twice in one day!
1129.  Heart groaning
1130. Redemption coming
1165.  God's friend
1174.  Gentle breezes
1206. Birdsong
1212. God shouting

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20 comments:

This Is The Day said...

Great post Shiloh! You always make me stop and think. What is the list...things you are thankful for?

Courtney said...

Thanks for sharing! I'm also reading One Thousand Things, and it's beautiful to see how much freedom God brings through thanksgiving! I am also just beginning to start out as a missionary in Japan, so your blog is very encouraging to me! Many thanks to you! :)

Anonymous said...

Really good post!

Mike & Netty said...

Came across your blog. So important for us to take our thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ, remembering all that He has blessed us with. My husband and I are going through the trial of our lives right now, and yet His grace continues to carry us through and to show us the power of His might and Spirit working in us and through us. God bless, Netty

help with essay said...

it is beautiful! everything you do here is amazing.. sometimes it even feels like i can find some peace for myself when i am here! thank you so much!

Barb said...

Bless you for creating such a journal and for opening your heart and arms to those who need uplifting.
Like so many other people I just got truly upsetting news which came on top of already stressful situations. But not to worry. The God we love and worship is able and willing to carry us when we get too tired. I pray you will always experience the warmth of His love, the honor of His presence and the tightness of His embrace.

Jenny said...

What a blessing to find your blog!! I started to say I found it by accident but nothing is by accident with God :-). Thank you Lord for leading me to this dear sister's blog. I will definitely be returning to your blog tomorrow to continue reading about you and your beautiful family. There is so much peace and love flowing through the words you have written here. I hope to be able to express myself as eloquently as you as I grow with my blogging. May God bless you and your family. Also, I've found a wonderful christian site called "Rest Ministries". I'm not affiliated with it other than just being a member. I felt led to mention this to you after reading about your MS diagnosis. I, too, suffer from several chronic illnesses and I've found Rest Ministries to be such a blessing. Looking forward to returning to your blog soon. Stop in to visit my blog when you have time. I'd love to have you.
Love in Christ,
Jenny

Zully said...

Loved it

have a lovely said...

you've crossed my mind this week...hoping you are well and feeling great! did you ever get to catch up with my friend?

J said...

"God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world." C.S. Lewis

Powerful and beautiful quote, mam.
With peace,

Stephanie said...

...just popping over from Jamie Jo's...
I am deeply, deeply moved by your blog post--- a blog from the heart and a heart well associated with pain. Thank you for sharing.
Can I be so crazy bold to recommend a book that has been very helpful in my own pain journey--- Amy Carmichael's Rose from Brier; written from her own sick bed. What an encouraging and challenging book---chapter after chapter.
Blessings on you and your family.

Stephanie said...

Can I just say one more thing... I just noticed this post was May--- if you can, keep writing--- we need to read more about this process in your life. He will "shout" through you Shilo.

A Joyful Noise said...

In life there is often a U turn and we are left gasping for air. Your post was thought provoking, but a nice ending. Keep writing!

Tim and Susan said...

Thanks for trying to keep up your blog, dear friend. Praying for you as God leads you and your family through this rough rode of "illness"....still His perfect and best, filled with His love and Grace for each day.

Just so you know I awarded you (along with others) the "Versatile Blog award" on my blog.
http://MemoirsofaMissionaryMom.blogspto.com/
Nor preasure to play along, just wanted you to feel honored, even just a little.

E-mail me sometime about where you are in W, our son will probably go to college there and we will be there some next summer, Lord willing.
Love and prayers!
Blessings, Susan

JoyJoy said...

Just in case you could use a boost today, I found this short devotion inspiring. I just read your blog today and I still had this up on my computer:
<a href="http://us2.campaign-archive1.com/?u=bed511e434184985961d50fcb&id=41429563a9>God's Story</a>

JoyJoy said...

Bummer, forgot the end quote. :)
God's Story

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Shiloh you hit the nail on the head this time,what a piece of reading you gave here.I really enjoyed allot with this article.Thanks for all this.

Andrea Beam said...

Beautiful post, thank you!

I have a devotional blog. I would love to link to this post on my blog Tuesday of next week. I wanted to ask your permission before I did so. Please feel free to visit my site. You can leave a comment on my most recent post and let me know if you mind! Thank you so much! God bless! (I have 2 blogs...my devotional one is called, Walking in Grace.)

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